Thursday, July 19, 2012

A Confuse Working Mom


This post is about my confusion as working mom who left my baby at house with family member. Fiuhh..

As a working mom who left Asha from 6 am to 7 pm, often i found Asha already fell asleep when i got home. My role during weekdays is just to breastfed and cuddle her till she falls asleep. In the morning, when it's time  for work , all i can do just kiss her cheeks and wishper to her ear while she still asleeps. Sometimes when she already wakes up early in the morning, she greets me with her sweetest smile and stares me with her bright eyes. Then i'll carry her, fell her soft and warm body in my arm, kissing her, and telling her her how beautiful she is and how much i love her. It's hard for me to leave her when she wakes up. That would be my first confusion.

After more than 12 hours leaving house, through the long exhausted journey from work to house, often struggling with traffic jam, my body needs time to realx. But i can't, because i have one more schedule to pump breastmik, i have Asha's bottles wait to be cleaned and sterilized, i have pile of Asha's cloth diapers and clothes wait to be washed, and ofcourse i have Asha to breastfed and cuddle. Though sometimes i abandon the clothes for couples day before i wash it, though sometimes i collect the expressed milk bottles for a week before i clean and sterilize it, it's all because i'm not a super mom who can stay a wake late night doing cleaning stuffs. I admitted that i'm a sleepy head. I can help it.

I put those dirty clothes in laundry bin and collect it till i have time to wash it, sometimes in 2 or 3 days. While for clothes diaper i manage to wash it everyday. I put the used  glass bottles, where i keep the expressed breastmilk (ASIP), in refrigerator until weekend before i clean it. Meanwhile the used feeding bottles have to be cleaned and sterilized everyday. So during weekend i do have lot of things to do. Not to mention my own and hubby's dirty clothes for a week.

Sometimes the family member intervention makes the situation even worse. They soak the used glass bottles with water ine big bowl along with breastmilk left inside. It makes the bottles stinks, even after i washed and boiled it. They soak cloth diapers with water inside the bucket and put the dirty clothes together in it. The problem is there's still poo lefts on cloth diapers. It mess the whole clothes for sure.

When i always keep everything dry, they always soak it in water and left it for days. And i don't have capability to clean all of that mess right away. And i don't have a heart to tell them to stop doing it, because it would mean i blame them while they just try to help me. Siggh..

So that was my second confusion.

I can't wait the day when i don't have to leave Asha at home. I can't wait for the day to take care Asha and do the whole thing by my self. I can't wait to be stay at home mom. There's still three more weeks to go.


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A Confuse Working Mom

This post is about my confusion as working mom who left my baby at house with family member. Fiuhh..

As a working mom who left Asha from 6 am to 7 pm, often i found Asha already fell asleep when i got home. My role during weekdays is just to breastfed and cuddle her till she falls asleep. In the morning, when it's time  for work , all i can do just kiss her cheeks and wishper to her ear while she still asleeps. Sometimes when she already wakes up early in the morning, she greets me with her sweetest smile and stares me with her bright eyes. Then i'll carry her, fell her soft and warm body in my arm, kissing her, and telling her her how beautiful she is and how much i love her. It's hard for me to leave her when she wakes up. That would be my first confusion.

After more than 12 hours leaving house, through the long exhausted journey from work to house, often struggling with traffic jam, my body needs time to realx. But i can't, because i have one more schedule to pump breastmik, i have Asha's bottles wait to be cleaned and sterilized, i have pile of Asha's cloth diapers and clothes wait to be washed, and ofcourse i have Asha to breastfed and cuddle. Though sometimes i abandon the clothes for couples day before i wash it, though sometimes i collect the expressed milk bottles for a week before i clean and sterilize it, it's all because i'm not a super mom who can stay a wake late night doing cleaning stuffs. I admitted that i'm a sleepy head. I can help it.

I put those dirty clothes in laundry bin and collect it till i have time to wash it, sometimes in 2 or 3 days. While for clothes diaper i manage to wash it everyday. I put the used  glass bottles, where i keep the expressed breastmilk (ASIP), in refrigerator until weekend before i clean it. Meanwhile the used feeding bottles have to be cleaned and sterilized everyday. So during weekend i do have lot of things to do. Not to mention my own and hubby's dirty clothes for a week.

Sometimes the family member intervention makes the situation even worse. They soak the used glass bottles with water ine big bowl along with breastmilk left inside. It makes the bottles stinks, even after i washed and boiled it. They soak cloth diapers with water inside the bucket and put the dirty clothes together in it. The problem is there's still poo lefts on cloth diapers. It mess the whole clothes for sure.

When i always keep everything dry, they always soak it in water and left it for days. And i don't have capability to clean all of that mess right away. And i don't have a heart to tell them to stop doing it, because it would mean i blame them while they just try to help me. Siggh..

So that was my second confusion.

I can't wait the day when i don't have to leave Asha at home. I can't wait for the day to take care Asha and do the whole thing by my self. I can't wait to be stay at home mom. There's still three more weeks to go.


 

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