Tuesday, January 22, 2013

[ASHA UPDTE] Setelah Satu Tahun Asha Bisa Apa Aja?

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1. Asha satu tahun sedang belajar berdiri tanpa pegangan dn berjalan sendiri. Krn kami ga mau pakein Asha baby walker, dn saya rasa telat kayanya klo beli baby harness atau moonwalk skrg, saya scr ga sengaja nemu cara sendiri buat ajarin asha berdiri dn jalan. Caranya, berdiriin Asha dg sandaran di dinding. Saya atau suami duduk di depannya. Lama2 Asha belajar melangkahkan kakinya ke arah kami. Walau dia masih takut2 dn merem2 waktu melangkah. Dn lebih banyak menjatuhkan badan utk kami tangkap drpd melangkah. Tp lama2 pake cara ini, Asha mulai berani dn mantap berdirinya. Langkahnya masih satu dua, tp dia mulai berani. Mudah2an ga lama lagi udh bs jalan sendiri.

Say  no to baby walker. Padahal lucu2 yaaa   




2. Asha satu tahun pengennya jalan sambil dititah keliling2 rumah. Dia lg seneng2nya explore sana sini. Lumayan bikin pegel kalo titah Asha kesana kemari. Hehe..
3. Asha satu tahun udh banyak celoteh2 ga jelas pake bahasa bayi yg lucu. Dn mulai bs bilang bbrp kata sederhana dan nyambung kalo diajak ngomong.
+ Asha, ayah mana?
- Bapa, bapa
+ Aaayaaahhh
- Bapa, bapa
Kayanya dia ga mau panggil ayah, maunya bapa. Panggil ibu apalagi. Blm mau dia :|
+ Asha, cicak mana?
- Ckckckckck
Asha bs niruin suara cicak, sambil matanya cari2 cicak di dinding.
+ Asha, tepok nyamuknya
- *tepuk, trs geleng2
+ Oohh nyamuknya ga ketangkep ya? Ga ada ya?
- *geleng geleng
Akibat lg byk nyamuk di rumah, asha jd belajar tepok nyamuk :D
+ Dududududuududuu (ada iklan coca cola)
- Haoooo
Asha suka bgt iklan coca cola itu. Dan bilang halo sambil nempelin tangan ke telinganya tiap denger dududududududuuu...
+ Asha, no no no!
- Ne ne ne
Niruin ibunya sambil telunjuknya bikin gesture no dn kepalanya geleng :D
+ Asha, doraemon / kitty mana?
- Tu iyaaaa
Maksud Asha, itu diaaa. Sambil nunjuk doraemon atau hello kitty
+ Asha, mana mba?
- Ba, ba, baa
Kakak perempuan selalu dia panggil mba :)
+ Asha, kepala mana?
- *tepuk2 kepalanya
+ Asha mana, Asha?
- *tepuk2 dadanya
Udah bs nunjuk pipi, kuping, dan kaki juga. Dan mulai paham kalo namanya dia, Asha :)
Yg paling terupdate, dia lagi hobiiiii bgt bilang
"Ini apa?" dan "Itu apa?"
Sambil tunjuk2. Jelasss bgt caranya ngomong. And she means what she said. Aaahh senangnya Asha udh belajar ngomong :*
4. Mulai suka nunjuk2 sesuatu sambil celoteh2. Mulai belajar gesture dgn tangannya.
- dadah, waving her hand kalo waktunya mau pamitan sama orang2
- gesture no, using her pointy finger kalo ada sesuatu yg dilarang
- gesture sini-sini, melambaikan tangannya sambil bilang nii, nii.. Artinya disuruh kesini deket2 Asha
5. Menu makan Asha udh table food. Dia udh full makan nasi. Kadang pake kuah biar dia gampang telennya. Alhmdlh Asha pinter ngunyah walau giginya baru dua.
6. Asha satu tahun giginya dua. Dua gigi seri dibawah dengan lucunya bertengger di gusi Asha.
Update, seminggu menjelang 13+m, gigi Asha udh ada empat. Dua gigi seri atas dan dua gigi seri bawah :D
7. Asha satu tahun hobi sikat gigi. Alhmdlh ga usah susah2 ajarin dia. Malah Asha nya suka ngambek kalo sikatnya diambil :D
8. Asha satu tahun mulai suka boneka dn karakter2 kartun. Favoritnya, hello kitty, doraemon, keropi, angry bird, shaun the sheep. Pasti kalo liat karakter2 itu dimanapun lgsg heboh nunjuk2 dn teriak2 excited :)
9. Asha satu tahun mulai suka nonton tivi. Terutama kartun dn ternyata suka jg sama yg ngedance2 dn iramanya ngebeat. Macam video SNSD yg boys. Kalo disetel itu, Asha kesenengan sambil joget2 deh :D
10. Asha satu tahun udh mulai kenal lagu. Cicak di dinding, hujan, naik delman, kakak tua. Dia udh mulai ngerti lagu itu maksudnya tentang apa aja. Misalnya kalo saya nyanyi hujan, "tiktiktik bunyi hujan...", Asha akan nengok keluar jendela buat liat apakah beneran hujan atau ga. Hehe..
11. Asha satu tahun mulai banyak belajar dr lingkungan dn orang2 sekitarnya. She's no longer a baby. She's already a toddler :')
Asha sayang, ibu dn ayah menyayangimu selalu :*

[ASHA UPDATE] Ulang Tahun Pertama Asha

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Ga kerasa Asha udh setahun. 11 januari 2012 - 11 januari 2013. Wow! Ulang tahun pertama Asha ga mgkn saya lupain seumur hidup. Hari itu dia demam sejak semalam sebelumnya. Malam sebelumnya saya, Asha dn suami nginep di rmh tante. Asha udh mulai sumeng mlm itu. Tp suhunya ga nyampe 37,5. Sepanjang malam kami pantau trs suhu Asha. Termometer selalu ada di dekat kami.

Pagi harinya suhu Asha udh di bawah 37. Kami memutuskan utk membawanya pulang. Saya yakin msh bs merawat Asha sendiri. Walau hr itu saya berat melepas suami pergi ke kantor, tp bgmn lg. Saya hrs kuat. Pagi itu Asha tidur di rumah dn saya trs pantau suhunya. Msh di bawah 37, pd bbrp saat sempet 37,2. Krn kelelahan akibat kurang makan dn tidur, saya pun terlelap sebentar di samping Asha. Mgkn sekitar 15 menit. Saya terbangun waktu Asha bangun. Lgsg saya pegang dahinya, astaga! Kok panas sekali. Cepat2 saya cek suhunya. Masya Allah, 38,2. Pdhl sblmnya 37,2. Saya panik krn kenaikan suhu Asha yg tiba2. Saya lari ambil Tempra, gendong Asha, dn berusaha meminumkannya pd Asha. Asha lgsg muntah. Pdhl br sedikit yg dia minum. Saya makin panik. *sambil nulis ini, saya bayangin adegan waktu itu, dn rasa panik dn takut itu menjalari saya lg sekarang*

Cepat saya buka bajunya yg basah kena muntahan. Yg saya inget selanjutnya adalah gendong metode kangguru, skin to skin contact buat menurunkan panasnya. Asha yg telanjang dada, saya tempelkam ke dada saya dn saya gendong. Dalam gendongan saya, dia menangis. Sambil menangis, tiba2 tangannya mengepal, matanya mulai membelalak, mulutnya terkatup. Masya Allah. Jangan lagi! Asha seperti hampir kejang, tp kemudian dia sadar dn menangis lg. Dn kembali menunjukan tanda seperti mau kejang. Sekitar 2-3 kali siklusnya seperti itu. Sampe akhirnya dia menangis trs dlm pelukan saya. Saat saya pikir dia sdh stabil, cpt saya tlp tante utk menemani saya ke RS. Saya tlp taksi utk cpt menjemput saya krn ini darurat. Saya sms suami saya dg tangan yg bergetar, minta dia segera pulang. Sambil menggendong Asha, tangan saya yg satunya menyiapkan tas utk ke RS. Dengan pikiran kacau yg berusaha tetap normal, dn tubuh yg lemah krn takut namun berusaha tetap kuat saya siapkan semuanya dg Asha dlm pelukan. Lama2 suhu Asha sepertinya mulai menurun. Tangisnya pun reda. Dn dia hanya diam saja dlm pelukanku, seperti keelelahan.

Di RS, kami bawa Asha ke UGD. Asha diberi penurun panas lewat pantatnya. Dan suhu Asha berangsur normal. Saat ditanya, mau pulang atau dirawat? Dokter menyarankan utk dirawat di rumah. Dgn berat hati krn tidak percaya diri, saya bilang iya. Kami pun membawa Asha pulang ke rumah tante krn saya ga pede kalo bawa Asha pulang ke rumah dn merawat dia sendiri. I need support. Dn tante saya adlh orang yg selalu welcome pada kami. Terimakasih ya Allah.

Jadi selain demam, Asha jg mencret. Demam Asha sdh hilang sejak dikasi obay di UGD itu, tp mencretnya msh. Frekuensinya msh wajar sih, 4 kali sehari. Hanya konsistensi pupnya aja yg cair. Selain itu perutnya jg kembung. Kami pikir, Asha demam dn mencret krn masuk angin. Alhmdlh demam ga muncul lg. Dn mencret hilang setelah dua hari.

Sungguh pengalaman ulang taun pertama yg menegangkan, menakutkan. Semoga jgn ada lagi ulang tahun yg kaya gini. Amiinnn..

Padahal ayahnya udh beliin kue ulang tahun sebelum hari ulang tahun Asha. Terpaksa acara potong kuenya ditunda sampe Asha agak baikan dn mulai ceria lg. Kue ulang tahun baru dipotong tanggal 12 januari. Sehari setelah ulang tahun Asha. Pake baju sekenanya, foto seadanya, pokoknya jauuuuhh dr bayangan saya tentang ulang tahun pertama Asha. Tp saya bersyukur, Asha baik2 saja. Sudah mulai sehat kembali. Itu kebahagiaan terbesar saya. Satu pelajaran buat saya, apa gunanya perayaan ulang tahun berlebihan kalo anak ga sehat. Anak sehat adalah karunia dn hadiah terbesar bagi anak dn orangtuanya. Itu saja cukup.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

[RECIPE] Ayam Goreng Enak

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Ini nih resep ayam goreng yg lagi sering dibikin sama saya. Resep yg saya dapet dr tante saya yg emang jago masak. Cara bikinnya gampang. Bumbunya jg ga saklek, bs dikurang/tambahin sesuai selera. Dn yg paling penting, kaya judulnya, rasanya enaaaakk. Apalagi dimakan hangat2 pake nasi panas. Dijamin ga cukup satu potong ayam doang deh! So here's the recipe :

BAHAN :
1. Satu ekor ayam yg udh dipotong2 (kalo merasa kebanyakan, tenang aja. Masakan ini bs di frozen ko. Tahan smp seminggu. Asik kan?)

2. Bawang putih 4-5 siung (less or more is okay)

3. Kemiri 6 butir (less or more is okay)

4. Ketumbar 2 sendok teh (less or more is okay)

5. Daun salam 2 lembar

6. Garam 1,5 sendok teh (atau sesuai selera)

7. Air 500 ml (honestly, sya ga pernah nakar airnya. Yg penting seluruh ayam kerendem. Hehe)

CARA MEMASAK :
1. Haluskan bawang putih, kemiri, ketumbar, garam pake ulekan atau blender jg boleh

2. Ayam yg sdh dipotong2, dicuci bersih.

3. Masukan bumbu halus, ayam, air, daun salam ke dalam wajan. Kemudian nyalakan kompor. Masak hingga air susut/hampir habis sambil sesekali dibolak-balik.

4. Setelah air susut, angkat ayam. Nah ayam ini yg bs difrozen. Tinggal simpen di wadah tertutup dn masukin ke kulkas. Tentunya setelah suhunya ga panas loh yaa. Kalo di frozen, bs tahan seminggu.

5. Kalo mau dimakan, ambil ayam secukupnya dn goreng hingga warnanya kecoklatan. Dimakan hangat2 lebih nikmat looh.

Udah gt doang. Gampang dn cepet bikinnya. Dan rasa dijamin enaaakk. My first attempt was a big success. Suamiku makan banyak dn nambah lagi dn lagi. Hehe.. Buat variasi, selain ayam, bs jg ditambah tahu atau ati ampela. Biar lebih semarak gitu, ga cuma ayam doang.

Selamat mencoba! ^_^

XOXO

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

[NGOBROL] Well It's (still) Wednesday

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It feels like a long week for me after i had a scary scene on Asha's first bday :'(

Though this week started with a helpful day frm my husband who took a day off from work, but still it couldn't lift up my mood, spirit, excitement, confidence to go through my daily role as a stay at home mom for Asha. This monday had been very wonderful. With husband at home, i could have more time to cook propper meal for us. Then we managed to tidy up the whole house. It feels better to see spacious clean room.

But as i said, still i haven't gain my confidence to take care Asha by myself again. So i decided to took her to my aunt house on Tuesday. It feels better to be around with family.

Today is wednesday. We had enough good time at my aunty's house. Time to go home. Tomorrow i'll start again my main role as a stay at home mom for Asha. I thought it is thursday already. But there are two more days before weekend. I have to be strong and be a good mom for Asha (good wife for husband too).

In a time like this, i feel like i wanna go back to bandung, to my parent. Bring Asha with me. So i can feel safe and secure to raise her around family. But that would be mean that we have to leave husband alone and go through the long distance relationship again which i don't want. So i'm in a big dilemma. Choosing between raising Asha safely calmly securily around my family (at least until she's 2 yo) or struggling my daily life day by day as a stay at home mom for Asha when there's lot of time i feel insecure, scare, unconfidence. Oh i'm so whinny. And it's still wednesday..

Friday, January 11, 2013

[NGOBROL] Feeling So Blue

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I'm not a strong brave hearted mom.

My wall of defense collapses whenever i saw my baby sick.

This morning when i looked that "help me, mom look" frm my baby, and i couldn' t do anything but carried her in my arms, for that minutes that ticked away, my whole world seemed to stop. My wall of defense was collapse.

This morning my baby got fever and she almost got another convulsion attack which she already had when she was 5 months old. Almost. I wasn't sure. When you hug your crying baby in your arms and she began to almost like spasm and she looked at you hoping you could help her from suffer, what would you do? All i could do was driving my mind to act normal as i could and decided to call taxi urging them to pick us up quickly to hospital.

When i recall the memory, this morning felt like a horor scene for me. Alone in the house with my sick baby and didn't know what to do or where to go or someone to run to. Cause my husband left for work.

At this point, i really lost my confidence of being a though mom for my baby. I am not though at all. I am weak whenever i see my baby sick, sad, and cry. I can't stand to touch her warm forehead whenever she got fever. I can't stand to hear her cry whenever she feels uncomfortable. I can't stand to look at her face, her eyes whenever she cry frm her sick. I just can't stand all of that sad thing. I even think that i'm not ready yet to live in separate house (town) from my parent. I even think i don't have that much strength to take care my baby with my own hand. I do need help. I do need to be around with my family.

This decision of living independence with husband and my baby in different town from our family sounds too much from me right now. While i used to be excited at first with this idea. With the pressure on me to be able doing the house hold stuffs, cooking, and taking care my baby by my own. It's just too much for me at the moment. Especially when i have to take care my sick baby alone. I can't stand.

But still i am gratefull for this things happened to me,

Alhamdulillah that Allah still protect my baby. Alhamdulillah that i have aunt lives in the same neighborhood so i can ask her to accompany me to hospital. Alhamdulillah that husband left some cash so i can pay the taxi and hospital bill. Alhamdulillah that my baby getting well now. Alhamdulillah that my baby sleeping well by my side right now.

Dear baby girl, on this day mom want to say : HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY KISSANIYA ASHA LAVENDA. I love you more than i can imagine. You are my precious gift from Allah. I want to protect you. I want to love you. I want you to be healthy, sholeha, happy for the rest of your life. I'm sorry if i can't be a good mother for you. But trust me, i'm working so hard for it.

I love you, baby. So much..

XOXO

[ASHA UPDTE] Setelah Satu Tahun Asha Bisa Apa Aja?

1. Asha satu tahun sedang belajar berdiri tanpa pegangan dn berjalan sendiri. Krn kami ga mau pakein Asha baby walker, dn saya rasa telat kayanya klo beli baby harness atau moonwalk skrg, saya scr ga sengaja nemu cara sendiri buat ajarin asha berdiri dn jalan. Caranya, berdiriin Asha dg sandaran di dinding. Saya atau suami duduk di depannya. Lama2 Asha belajar melangkahkan kakinya ke arah kami. Walau dia masih takut2 dn merem2 waktu melangkah. Dn lebih banyak menjatuhkan badan utk kami tangkap drpd melangkah. Tp lama2 pake cara ini, Asha mulai berani dn mantap berdirinya. Langkahnya masih satu dua, tp dia mulai berani. Mudah2an ga lama lagi udh bs jalan sendiri.

Say  no to baby walker. Padahal lucu2 yaaa   




2. Asha satu tahun pengennya jalan sambil dititah keliling2 rumah. Dia lg seneng2nya explore sana sini. Lumayan bikin pegel kalo titah Asha kesana kemari. Hehe..
3. Asha satu tahun udh banyak celoteh2 ga jelas pake bahasa bayi yg lucu. Dn mulai bs bilang bbrp kata sederhana dan nyambung kalo diajak ngomong.
+ Asha, ayah mana?
- Bapa, bapa
+ Aaayaaahhh
- Bapa, bapa
Kayanya dia ga mau panggil ayah, maunya bapa. Panggil ibu apalagi. Blm mau dia :|
+ Asha, cicak mana?
- Ckckckckck
Asha bs niruin suara cicak, sambil matanya cari2 cicak di dinding.
+ Asha, tepok nyamuknya
- *tepuk, trs geleng2
+ Oohh nyamuknya ga ketangkep ya? Ga ada ya?
- *geleng geleng
Akibat lg byk nyamuk di rumah, asha jd belajar tepok nyamuk :D
+ Dududududuududuu (ada iklan coca cola)
- Haoooo
Asha suka bgt iklan coca cola itu. Dan bilang halo sambil nempelin tangan ke telinganya tiap denger dududududududuuu...
+ Asha, no no no!
- Ne ne ne
Niruin ibunya sambil telunjuknya bikin gesture no dn kepalanya geleng :D
+ Asha, doraemon / kitty mana?
- Tu iyaaaa
Maksud Asha, itu diaaa. Sambil nunjuk doraemon atau hello kitty
+ Asha, mana mba?
- Ba, ba, baa
Kakak perempuan selalu dia panggil mba :)
+ Asha, kepala mana?
- *tepuk2 kepalanya
+ Asha mana, Asha?
- *tepuk2 dadanya
Udah bs nunjuk pipi, kuping, dan kaki juga. Dan mulai paham kalo namanya dia, Asha :)
Yg paling terupdate, dia lagi hobiiiii bgt bilang
"Ini apa?" dan "Itu apa?"
Sambil tunjuk2. Jelasss bgt caranya ngomong. And she means what she said. Aaahh senangnya Asha udh belajar ngomong :*
4. Mulai suka nunjuk2 sesuatu sambil celoteh2. Mulai belajar gesture dgn tangannya.
- dadah, waving her hand kalo waktunya mau pamitan sama orang2
- gesture no, using her pointy finger kalo ada sesuatu yg dilarang
- gesture sini-sini, melambaikan tangannya sambil bilang nii, nii.. Artinya disuruh kesini deket2 Asha
5. Menu makan Asha udh table food. Dia udh full makan nasi. Kadang pake kuah biar dia gampang telennya. Alhmdlh Asha pinter ngunyah walau giginya baru dua.
6. Asha satu tahun giginya dua. Dua gigi seri dibawah dengan lucunya bertengger di gusi Asha.
Update, seminggu menjelang 13+m, gigi Asha udh ada empat. Dua gigi seri atas dan dua gigi seri bawah :D
7. Asha satu tahun hobi sikat gigi. Alhmdlh ga usah susah2 ajarin dia. Malah Asha nya suka ngambek kalo sikatnya diambil :D
8. Asha satu tahun mulai suka boneka dn karakter2 kartun. Favoritnya, hello kitty, doraemon, keropi, angry bird, shaun the sheep. Pasti kalo liat karakter2 itu dimanapun lgsg heboh nunjuk2 dn teriak2 excited :)
9. Asha satu tahun mulai suka nonton tivi. Terutama kartun dn ternyata suka jg sama yg ngedance2 dn iramanya ngebeat. Macam video SNSD yg boys. Kalo disetel itu, Asha kesenengan sambil joget2 deh :D
10. Asha satu tahun udh mulai kenal lagu. Cicak di dinding, hujan, naik delman, kakak tua. Dia udh mulai ngerti lagu itu maksudnya tentang apa aja. Misalnya kalo saya nyanyi hujan, "tiktiktik bunyi hujan...", Asha akan nengok keluar jendela buat liat apakah beneran hujan atau ga. Hehe..
11. Asha satu tahun mulai banyak belajar dr lingkungan dn orang2 sekitarnya. She's no longer a baby. She's already a toddler :')
Asha sayang, ibu dn ayah menyayangimu selalu :*

[ASHA UPDATE] Ulang Tahun Pertama Asha

Ga kerasa Asha udh setahun. 11 januari 2012 - 11 januari 2013. Wow! Ulang tahun pertama Asha ga mgkn saya lupain seumur hidup. Hari itu dia demam sejak semalam sebelumnya. Malam sebelumnya saya, Asha dn suami nginep di rmh tante. Asha udh mulai sumeng mlm itu. Tp suhunya ga nyampe 37,5. Sepanjang malam kami pantau trs suhu Asha. Termometer selalu ada di dekat kami.

Pagi harinya suhu Asha udh di bawah 37. Kami memutuskan utk membawanya pulang. Saya yakin msh bs merawat Asha sendiri. Walau hr itu saya berat melepas suami pergi ke kantor, tp bgmn lg. Saya hrs kuat. Pagi itu Asha tidur di rumah dn saya trs pantau suhunya. Msh di bawah 37, pd bbrp saat sempet 37,2. Krn kelelahan akibat kurang makan dn tidur, saya pun terlelap sebentar di samping Asha. Mgkn sekitar 15 menit. Saya terbangun waktu Asha bangun. Lgsg saya pegang dahinya, astaga! Kok panas sekali. Cepat2 saya cek suhunya. Masya Allah, 38,2. Pdhl sblmnya 37,2. Saya panik krn kenaikan suhu Asha yg tiba2. Saya lari ambil Tempra, gendong Asha, dn berusaha meminumkannya pd Asha. Asha lgsg muntah. Pdhl br sedikit yg dia minum. Saya makin panik. *sambil nulis ini, saya bayangin adegan waktu itu, dn rasa panik dn takut itu menjalari saya lg sekarang*

Cepat saya buka bajunya yg basah kena muntahan. Yg saya inget selanjutnya adalah gendong metode kangguru, skin to skin contact buat menurunkan panasnya. Asha yg telanjang dada, saya tempelkam ke dada saya dn saya gendong. Dalam gendongan saya, dia menangis. Sambil menangis, tiba2 tangannya mengepal, matanya mulai membelalak, mulutnya terkatup. Masya Allah. Jangan lagi! Asha seperti hampir kejang, tp kemudian dia sadar dn menangis lg. Dn kembali menunjukan tanda seperti mau kejang. Sekitar 2-3 kali siklusnya seperti itu. Sampe akhirnya dia menangis trs dlm pelukan saya. Saat saya pikir dia sdh stabil, cpt saya tlp tante utk menemani saya ke RS. Saya tlp taksi utk cpt menjemput saya krn ini darurat. Saya sms suami saya dg tangan yg bergetar, minta dia segera pulang. Sambil menggendong Asha, tangan saya yg satunya menyiapkan tas utk ke RS. Dengan pikiran kacau yg berusaha tetap normal, dn tubuh yg lemah krn takut namun berusaha tetap kuat saya siapkan semuanya dg Asha dlm pelukan. Lama2 suhu Asha sepertinya mulai menurun. Tangisnya pun reda. Dn dia hanya diam saja dlm pelukanku, seperti keelelahan.

Di RS, kami bawa Asha ke UGD. Asha diberi penurun panas lewat pantatnya. Dan suhu Asha berangsur normal. Saat ditanya, mau pulang atau dirawat? Dokter menyarankan utk dirawat di rumah. Dgn berat hati krn tidak percaya diri, saya bilang iya. Kami pun membawa Asha pulang ke rumah tante krn saya ga pede kalo bawa Asha pulang ke rumah dn merawat dia sendiri. I need support. Dn tante saya adlh orang yg selalu welcome pada kami. Terimakasih ya Allah.

Jadi selain demam, Asha jg mencret. Demam Asha sdh hilang sejak dikasi obay di UGD itu, tp mencretnya msh. Frekuensinya msh wajar sih, 4 kali sehari. Hanya konsistensi pupnya aja yg cair. Selain itu perutnya jg kembung. Kami pikir, Asha demam dn mencret krn masuk angin. Alhmdlh demam ga muncul lg. Dn mencret hilang setelah dua hari.

Sungguh pengalaman ulang taun pertama yg menegangkan, menakutkan. Semoga jgn ada lagi ulang tahun yg kaya gini. Amiinnn..

Padahal ayahnya udh beliin kue ulang tahun sebelum hari ulang tahun Asha. Terpaksa acara potong kuenya ditunda sampe Asha agak baikan dn mulai ceria lg. Kue ulang tahun baru dipotong tanggal 12 januari. Sehari setelah ulang tahun Asha. Pake baju sekenanya, foto seadanya, pokoknya jauuuuhh dr bayangan saya tentang ulang tahun pertama Asha. Tp saya bersyukur, Asha baik2 saja. Sudah mulai sehat kembali. Itu kebahagiaan terbesar saya. Satu pelajaran buat saya, apa gunanya perayaan ulang tahun berlebihan kalo anak ga sehat. Anak sehat adalah karunia dn hadiah terbesar bagi anak dn orangtuanya. Itu saja cukup.

[RECIPE] Ayam Goreng Enak

Ini nih resep ayam goreng yg lagi sering dibikin sama saya. Resep yg saya dapet dr tante saya yg emang jago masak. Cara bikinnya gampang. Bumbunya jg ga saklek, bs dikurang/tambahin sesuai selera. Dn yg paling penting, kaya judulnya, rasanya enaaaakk. Apalagi dimakan hangat2 pake nasi panas. Dijamin ga cukup satu potong ayam doang deh! So here's the recipe :

BAHAN :
1. Satu ekor ayam yg udh dipotong2 (kalo merasa kebanyakan, tenang aja. Masakan ini bs di frozen ko. Tahan smp seminggu. Asik kan?)

2. Bawang putih 4-5 siung (less or more is okay)

3. Kemiri 6 butir (less or more is okay)

4. Ketumbar 2 sendok teh (less or more is okay)

5. Daun salam 2 lembar

6. Garam 1,5 sendok teh (atau sesuai selera)

7. Air 500 ml (honestly, sya ga pernah nakar airnya. Yg penting seluruh ayam kerendem. Hehe)

CARA MEMASAK :
1. Haluskan bawang putih, kemiri, ketumbar, garam pake ulekan atau blender jg boleh

2. Ayam yg sdh dipotong2, dicuci bersih.

3. Masukan bumbu halus, ayam, air, daun salam ke dalam wajan. Kemudian nyalakan kompor. Masak hingga air susut/hampir habis sambil sesekali dibolak-balik.

4. Setelah air susut, angkat ayam. Nah ayam ini yg bs difrozen. Tinggal simpen di wadah tertutup dn masukin ke kulkas. Tentunya setelah suhunya ga panas loh yaa. Kalo di frozen, bs tahan seminggu.

5. Kalo mau dimakan, ambil ayam secukupnya dn goreng hingga warnanya kecoklatan. Dimakan hangat2 lebih nikmat looh.

Udah gt doang. Gampang dn cepet bikinnya. Dan rasa dijamin enaaakk. My first attempt was a big success. Suamiku makan banyak dn nambah lagi dn lagi. Hehe.. Buat variasi, selain ayam, bs jg ditambah tahu atau ati ampela. Biar lebih semarak gitu, ga cuma ayam doang.

Selamat mencoba! ^_^

XOXO

[NGOBROL] Well It's (still) Wednesday

It feels like a long week for me after i had a scary scene on Asha's first bday :'(

Though this week started with a helpful day frm my husband who took a day off from work, but still it couldn't lift up my mood, spirit, excitement, confidence to go through my daily role as a stay at home mom for Asha. This monday had been very wonderful. With husband at home, i could have more time to cook propper meal for us. Then we managed to tidy up the whole house. It feels better to see spacious clean room.

But as i said, still i haven't gain my confidence to take care Asha by myself again. So i decided to took her to my aunt house on Tuesday. It feels better to be around with family.

Today is wednesday. We had enough good time at my aunty's house. Time to go home. Tomorrow i'll start again my main role as a stay at home mom for Asha. I thought it is thursday already. But there are two more days before weekend. I have to be strong and be a good mom for Asha (good wife for husband too).

In a time like this, i feel like i wanna go back to bandung, to my parent. Bring Asha with me. So i can feel safe and secure to raise her around family. But that would be mean that we have to leave husband alone and go through the long distance relationship again which i don't want. So i'm in a big dilemma. Choosing between raising Asha safely calmly securily around my family (at least until she's 2 yo) or struggling my daily life day by day as a stay at home mom for Asha when there's lot of time i feel insecure, scare, unconfidence. Oh i'm so whinny. And it's still wednesday..

[NGOBROL] Feeling So Blue

I'm not a strong brave hearted mom.

My wall of defense collapses whenever i saw my baby sick.

This morning when i looked that "help me, mom look" frm my baby, and i couldn' t do anything but carried her in my arms, for that minutes that ticked away, my whole world seemed to stop. My wall of defense was collapse.

This morning my baby got fever and she almost got another convulsion attack which she already had when she was 5 months old. Almost. I wasn't sure. When you hug your crying baby in your arms and she began to almost like spasm and she looked at you hoping you could help her from suffer, what would you do? All i could do was driving my mind to act normal as i could and decided to call taxi urging them to pick us up quickly to hospital.

When i recall the memory, this morning felt like a horor scene for me. Alone in the house with my sick baby and didn't know what to do or where to go or someone to run to. Cause my husband left for work.

At this point, i really lost my confidence of being a though mom for my baby. I am not though at all. I am weak whenever i see my baby sick, sad, and cry. I can't stand to touch her warm forehead whenever she got fever. I can't stand to hear her cry whenever she feels uncomfortable. I can't stand to look at her face, her eyes whenever she cry frm her sick. I just can't stand all of that sad thing. I even think that i'm not ready yet to live in separate house (town) from my parent. I even think i don't have that much strength to take care my baby with my own hand. I do need help. I do need to be around with my family.

This decision of living independence with husband and my baby in different town from our family sounds too much from me right now. While i used to be excited at first with this idea. With the pressure on me to be able doing the house hold stuffs, cooking, and taking care my baby by my own. It's just too much for me at the moment. Especially when i have to take care my sick baby alone. I can't stand.

But still i am gratefull for this things happened to me,

Alhamdulillah that Allah still protect my baby. Alhamdulillah that i have aunt lives in the same neighborhood so i can ask her to accompany me to hospital. Alhamdulillah that husband left some cash so i can pay the taxi and hospital bill. Alhamdulillah that my baby getting well now. Alhamdulillah that my baby sleeping well by my side right now.

Dear baby girl, on this day mom want to say : HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY KISSANIYA ASHA LAVENDA. I love you more than i can imagine. You are my precious gift from Allah. I want to protect you. I want to love you. I want you to be healthy, sholeha, happy for the rest of your life. I'm sorry if i can't be a good mother for you. But trust me, i'm working so hard for it.

I love you, baby. So much..

XOXO

 

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